Why I’ve not been writing my blog..
Well its been a real while since I wrote on this blog. And the truth is that quite frankly I just didn’t feel like writing at all…
It was the 14th of june… Karachi…Almost 10 pm and Ali Hamza, Mandana and I along with a 100 or so other celebrities were sitting at the grand MTV awards. We had also invited Mandana’s brother Raad, who was incidentally on a business trip to Karachi. He has no association whatsoever with music and is in the fuel marketing business.
We were nominated for 2 catagories but our real excitement was about performing our brand new single ”Kedaar”. We had rehearsed like maniacs for it. It was all very exciting.
So this is what happens…
The nominations for best rock songs began and Do Dil was the second one…
my heart starts pounding.
The presenters started their usual chit chat before announcing the winner..
And suddenly someone grabs my hand from behind and tells me to get up and come on the side….it was Mandana’s brother Raad.
The next scentence I hear is…
”Baba just called …Ammi has passed away…”
Then from a long distance I hear a scream…”AND THE WINNER IS DO DIL BY NOORI!!!”
Mandana’s mother just passed away…
I almost fell down to the ground..
I dropped on a bench nearby and started chanting ”oh my God..oh my God..oh my God”…I thought I was gonna have a heart attack….
And then Hamza grabs me..”lets go yaar”..
”Don’t tell Mandana”..i whispered to Raad.
…and we were on the stage receiving an award
and then we performed the song..
…and then Mandana found out.
Got back to Lahore..had the funeral the next day..
Flew back to Karachi the day after that performed a concert..
Flew back for the Qul
…..a really dirty Deja Vu
Isn’t this what happened to me exactly the same way a year ago when Mandana’s brother died..
Everything’s a blur now
don’t have the courage to write any further…
I’m sorry….


